Random thoughts at creepy time.

I’ll soon be 27, who would say that this will be my scary age?

It’s not about getting older, it’s the responsibility and expectations that comes with it.

It’s also about what am I going to do with my life, what’s the meaning of it.

I don’t have a plan for the future or even an idea where I want to be in 10 years, I’m still trying to figure how to deal with present and everyday obstacles.

It’s 4 in the morning, isn’t that ironic?

Proper description of my current state would be lost…

I’m not happy with my current job, and that pulls out all of my energy.

Very good friend of mine always wanted to be a hero, and I have always admired that goal of hers.

For me, it was all about changing the world. Not such a stupid dream, but quite hard to accomplish.

I never wanted everything. I never wanted big money, although it is nice to have it.

I always wanted to find inner peace which will keep me going.

I’m happy when I’m able to help, when I have an answer to a question.

I miss being passionate about things I love and do in my life.

Job I’m doing now, I’m not sure if I can explain what’s wrong whit it, why I have more bad then good thoughts on my mind. I keep running in a giant circle, and keep missing the exit sign. I feel invisible, and helpless…

Maybe this is the best time to ask myself why I am still here. Like I haven’t asked this question before.

Since these are random thoughts, I have one more on my mind.

That waiter at the favorite bar.

I wonder if he has the same smile for everyone?

However - I’m tired of it.