why am I crazy

Those of you who know me, well.., you are very familiar with my mood swings.
Some of you even make jokes about it, which is pretty awesome, I have to admit.

But in reality, if you are me, let me tell you, fun is not the word I would use to describe it.

I know I can be hard to deal with, even to talk, I know that I put walls between the rest of the world and myself, I know I'm cranky, evil sometimes.

And if you don't know, I will tell you now, I'm sorry because of that, but there is not much I can do, except to be away from you.

That's why I'm being quiet and pushing you away, just to avoid having a fight for no reason, and no meaning.

Girls will understand me, it's like having constant PSM - the worst one.

Why do I blog about this?

Because people around me started noticing I'm not ok.

And that hurts the most.

Because I cannot keep fooling myself anymore, I'm not good.

My body is tired, my mind is full and locked in a constant time pursue and in a rush to do more and more and more. Just for the pleasure. Hm.

That's all for now, I guess there is more to come.

With love,

S