what's the point

sorry guys, but I feel like a crap today, I mean, what's the point!!!

don't you want to share the guilt?

BBQ food is good
You invite me out to eat it, I should...
Go, but I'm feeling kind of nervous
And not quite myself
So I'm running late on purpose
And I know this wont help
How things have become between us
But if I go you'll give me hell
And that I dont know how to fix it
Is making me unwell
Well

I arrive at your house
But you've just got up
And you are wearing a towel
And your eyes look dark
I help to dry your body
And I see your cut
So I give you a plaster
And we cover it up
I say "Have you been crying?"
And you say "Shut Up"
So we sit in the garden
And touch the grass
With our hands

The sun is going down now
And it's been okay
You tell me all the things you did
While I was away
And this worries me somewhat
You say you're fine

Listen
Can you hear it?
Does it speak?
Will I feel it?
Will it hurt?
Am I near it?
I dont know

I dont know how more people havent got mental health problems
Thinking is one of those stressful things I've ever come across
And not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy
I think I should read some more books
Learn some new words
My sister used to read the dictionary
I'm going to start with that
I'd like to travel
I want to see India and the pyramids
A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France
I'm not sure about rivers, they scare me
But I love swimming, I'm good at it
And when I swim I count the laps
And this helps me relax
When I was younger I saw a house burn down
I walked past it for the next six years
Derelict, black, chalky and dangerous
I wondered if squatters lived there
I'm still not sure but I know there will never be parties cuz its a shit-hole
After a while the council got round to tidying the town
They decided it was an eyesore so they tore it down
Behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crabby graffiti and the word 'Cunt' written in giant letters
And now I walk past that
I like going to the park
And I like walking through it
I like taking my dogs there
And friends, and I like being alone
I like being able to shout
But I wish I could be quiet
When I'm quiet people just think I'm sad
And usually I am
Sometimes when I'm at a really noisy train station
Somewhere with the fast trains like Kings Cross
I feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because I've got something to say

Don't you want to share the guilt?
Don't think, just try and sleep


Kate Nash

words i cannot bring together

"I feel love in the house tonight, that's all there is."

Some of the comments, others have posted.


I've only been a fan for a few weeks...because someone on youtube mentioned his name.
I guess I'm hooked because all his stuff doesn't seem to have been passed through a filter of executives at a music company.
They guy just appears genuine...and proud of it.


T E R R I F I C! this performance is a masterpiece!!! this guy is born to make a music that just mesmerizes you! he is an incredible songwriter, vocalist and performer. what mostly attracts me that he is so honest in his songs, he writes from his heart,about his feelings and he does it perfectly. he is open to his listeners and knows the language to communicate with them. he is frank and simple. I just love him and his music


So fantastic. I love the idea of this. It's like he's just playing for himself because he loves to. He just wants to sing his song, regardless of any approval or encouragement from anyone. Out of all the recordings I've heard of this, this is the most intimate and heartfelt

this song. this version, is going to be at my funeral. just amazing. this man.. hes just phenomenal. I'm kinda glad he hasnt made it fully mainstream because only his fans right now fully appreciate his music and his talent. It's kinda like he belongs to us :) He's so in touch with his fans and appreciates us as much as we appreciate him. Long live Jason Mraz, the most underrated artist there will ever be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--3cakcsgCo&feature=related

first walking messanger of love...

first time in Serbia, soon.

I'll leave it to you to give the name to this post

I don't really know when I discovered Jason Mraz. I think, at first, I kinda hatted his "I'm yours" - God knows why.

Today I cannot imagine my day wihtout his songs, or words. He is the reason I decided to start blogging, he is the reason I'm trying to make a change, to be a change. And let me tell you, it's hard. But each time when I feel like I'm fighting the invisible battle, his magic words, peace and endless love for the life and the world, makes me keep going. So yes, maybe not the reason, but strength for sure.




He is kind, honest, true, grateful, peaceful, the change, love and only human in this mainly mad world.

I wish for myself to be like that. I wish for the entire world to be like that. I don't think that's a silly dream.

Sometimes I think his life purpose is to make other people happy and make this planet we call our home a better place for all of us.


It's hard for me to choose the correct words to describe my thoughts and emotions.

Let me just say what he taught me,

Be Love.

to hot to think.

...

summer is here.

and no water to take a swim.

Danube is to filthy.

pure love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzd_RfaoMcs

running in circle

I had a hell of a week, and it's not over yet. I heard somewhere that yet is a quite sad word - today I understand why.

I'm somewhere in between. I don't really know whether I have started something, or whether I have just finished.

I haven't seen my friends for a while now, and I keep asking myself, when am I going to find some time to have a coffee with some of the closest ones. When I'm not working, I'm sleeping. And more important, when I do work, everyone else is sleeping. It's hard. I fell like I'm loosing my life purpose, and I'm not sure if I ever was sure what exactly that is. I need to do something good!

I want to adopt a dog - and I'm thinking why would I do that - when I'm not quite sure if I'm going to be able to take a proper care about myself.

I keep thinking that some people much easier deal with everyday problems, easier than me.

My body is so tired, my mind is confused, and still I don't think I'm bad. At least I don't feel bad.

I just need some order in my life.

It's hard, really hard.