on female mentors and wise women

I'm a firm believer in Universe and that you get what you put out there.
For few years now, I've been asking and saying to the Universe, I need a mentor, or an older female who's gonna guide me through life.
And the more I was asking, the more women showed up in my life to act as such. And I'm incredibly grateful for each and every one of them for entering my life and for healing the wounds of the past and for being themselves. And for giving and sharing their life lessons and their wisdom with me. I'm so lucky and blessed.

I'm also incredibly grateful to find out about these amazing and beautiful warriors, as they entered my virtual Universe when I was ready to hear, embrace and soak in their truths, that just happen to be my truths as well.

Miss Iyanla Vanzant and Tamara Levinson Campos, thank you for being brave, authentic and for believing in love.

on cravings and self - love

Some days are just hard. Some nights are even harder. On some afternoons I walk through this town tears running down my face. Missing you. Missing our story. How we met, secrets I told you, holding your hand in silence, salsa dancing in the kitchen, hugging you. And then there is pain. The hurt. And love that I want to give you. Love that I need to give myself. It is so hard to give myself all that I need. Because there is so much caring, nurturing and attention. So much healing. And I will be ok, I know I will. I am ok. I am standing on my own two feet. Living. Smiling, laughing, exploring. But then missing you and our life deeply. My soul craves your soul. There is no other way to describe it.

on commitment, open relationships, being "the one" and the heartbreak

My current relationship status: single.

Two months ago I would have said: heartbroken.

Today I would say that on a spiritual level I'm healing from a codependent relationship that ended with pain and hurt.

I'm not ready to talk about what has happened between us, because I'm still trying to make sense out of all of it. Still trying to figure out my responsibility in this break up, and the entire relationship and what has nothing to do with me, but it's my ex's stuff.

And it's freaking hard, being aware and powerless all at the same time. Being mature and then being a complete child in all of this. Then loving myself and the other person still. Showing the kindness but honoring the emotions that are in me. And there is a lot. A lot of hurt, a lot of pain, a lot of anger. But also love, and compassion and understanding and kindness.

I'm doing my best to heal, to recover, to forgive and there is few sources that I reach towards when I'm lacking the strength to give myself what I need.They explain better what I'm thinking, than I'm able at the moment.

It also explains where and how and maybe even why my relationship ended. So instead of me talking about it, I will let you listen to these talks.