a Dog Story

For those who do not know, I adopted a dog in August.

A small mixed breed female dog.

I named her Tara.

She is fatty, she has a middle long white soft hair, with three black spots.

I can't even describe the happiness and joy she brings to me, and the love I have for her. I currently work as a babysitter, and each night, when I'm about to open the door, chills go trough my body, because I know that she will jump to lick me, to smell me, and lay down to cuddle her. We sleep together, I like it that way. When she wants me to wake up, she jumps over my head, until I do something. She likes to put her head below my hands, actually she lifts up my arms, and then snuggle her head below them, to hug her. Every morning when she gets back from her peeing, she lies right bellow my knees, you know in that corner you create with your legs during the sleep.

Why am I sad today.

Because my dad said the most hurt able thing ever. I know he was joking, but he did heart me really bad.

He said we could make a really good kebabs from her. Or even we can put her on a spit, and cook her. He added:"We would resolve two problems, having a dog in a house, and a meat for our patron saint - if I got all of these words right in English.

She is jumping around me at the moment, and for the first time I'm sad for that.

New Year, Old Feelings...

I have this enormous destructive energy in myself, that I'm scared off.

If you cannot, I assure you that I can understand those who kill out of rage.

You would not believe how easily the black-out and short switch overcome the beauty we all have inside.

I don't like this evil twin of mine, It's how I like to call it. I hate behaving like a maniac, I hate these destructive feelings and thoughts constantly running around my head.

My wishes for each year combine in my personal mantra: Peace, Love and Understanding.

Will this year be the one where my entire being creates the circle? The whole me?

It remains to be seen.

It didn't start to well, I'm seriously sick, everything hurts me, and everything annoys me.

But do believe in love.