is this hell, or just feels like it?
People screaming around me, at me, demanding, and I feel like I'm in a circle, and everyone wants a piece of me, pulling out not a piece, but the whole me.
People are greedy, and I know that you know how money transforms even the best and the kindest person in the entire world.
I'm not sure if I capable to live in this kind of a world, I'm not sure if I have all what does it take to live amongst these sharks of people. Who invented money anyway, why does it so fucking much rules this stupid world!!!
Aug 31, 2010
Aug 25, 2010
be.
Well, I hate PMS!
And fool moon too!
Who invented those things anyway!
I had a fight with my mom today, actually it was such a mess, public fight, crying and leaving her and my older sister in the middle of a street.
I have serious identity crisis and not sure where I am at the moment, and if what I'm doing is any good.
And now I feel sorry and angry, and gosh, such a mess. My mom didn't do anything wrong, but not sure if she did anything good, though.
The thing I was always missing in my family is a support. Today I needed that too, but didn't get it.
And I miss being happy, and really want to know what happiness is...
Trying to be me,
S
And fool moon too!
Who invented those things anyway!
I had a fight with my mom today, actually it was such a mess, public fight, crying and leaving her and my older sister in the middle of a street.
I have serious identity crisis and not sure where I am at the moment, and if what I'm doing is any good.
And now I feel sorry and angry, and gosh, such a mess. My mom didn't do anything wrong, but not sure if she did anything good, though.
The thing I was always missing in my family is a support. Today I needed that too, but didn't get it.
And I miss being happy, and really want to know what happiness is...
Trying to be me,
S
Aug 21, 2010
Aug 19, 2010
why am I crazy
Those of you who know me, well.., you are very familiar with my mood swings.
Some of you even make jokes about it, which is pretty awesome, I have to admit.
But in reality, if you are me, let me tell you, fun is not the word I would use to describe it.
I know I can be hard to deal with, even to talk, I know that I put walls between the rest of the world and myself, I know I'm cranky, evil sometimes.
And if you don't know, I will tell you now, I'm sorry because of that, but there is not much I can do, except to be away from you.
That's why I'm being quiet and pushing you away, just to avoid having a fight for no reason, and no meaning.
Girls will understand me, it's like having constant PSM - the worst one.
Why do I blog about this?
Because people around me started noticing I'm not ok.
And that hurts the most.
Because I cannot keep fooling myself anymore, I'm not good.
My body is tired, my mind is full and locked in a constant time pursue and in a rush to do more and more and more. Just for the pleasure. Hm.
That's all for now, I guess there is more to come.
With love,
S
Some of you even make jokes about it, which is pretty awesome, I have to admit.
But in reality, if you are me, let me tell you, fun is not the word I would use to describe it.
I know I can be hard to deal with, even to talk, I know that I put walls between the rest of the world and myself, I know I'm cranky, evil sometimes.
And if you don't know, I will tell you now, I'm sorry because of that, but there is not much I can do, except to be away from you.
That's why I'm being quiet and pushing you away, just to avoid having a fight for no reason, and no meaning.
Girls will understand me, it's like having constant PSM - the worst one.
Why do I blog about this?
Because people around me started noticing I'm not ok.
And that hurts the most.
Because I cannot keep fooling myself anymore, I'm not good.
My body is tired, my mind is full and locked in a constant time pursue and in a rush to do more and more and more. Just for the pleasure. Hm.
That's all for now, I guess there is more to come.
With love,
S
a hero
you would be crazy not to love this guy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErLQjnwtVWQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dq1HJI76RbU&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErLQjnwtVWQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dq1HJI76RbU&feature=related
Aug 18, 2010
Aug 16, 2010
he keeps rolling
my biggest inspiration ...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S35a60s1RQ&playnext=1&videos=haPqgxTfua8&feature=sub
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yy5nNxIfLCA&feature=channel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S35a60s1RQ&playnext=1&videos=haPqgxTfua8&feature=sub
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yy5nNxIfLCA&feature=channel
Aug 14, 2010
question (s ) of a day...
I have just realized that my world is actually running around two daily questions:
What to eat...
and
What to wear...
What to eat...
and
What to wear...
Aug 13, 2010
fake people seeing today
A fake person is someone who is not genuine and will do whatever it takes to make themself look good. They will take credit for other's work or down play the good of others to illuminate oneself. Fake people take part in hipocrisy, lies, and will turn on friendship the moment it no longer is a benefit for them. They will change thier personality to fit in to a certain group.
i think you're the same as me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qa163ZXdtnI&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-j0wnt_fRE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38Oh02l5rYE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-j0wnt_fRE&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38Oh02l5rYE&feature=related
Aug 12, 2010
memories
This song brings back so many beautiful memories...
Missing Oman.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCVLDnEc7hc&feature=related
Missing Oman.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCVLDnEc7hc&feature=related
special post for a special person
To my lovely friend Dunja,
20 reasons to love giraffes...
Enjoy my dear.
http://www.disaboomlive.com/blogs/hopefulnebula/archive/2009/01/02/20-reasons-i-love-giraffes.aspx
20 reasons to love giraffes...
Enjoy my dear.
http://www.disaboomlive.com/blogs/hopefulnebula/archive/2009/01/02/20-reasons-i-love-giraffes.aspx
Aug 10, 2010
A new position
Recently I have been moved to a new position, HR Manager, or Coordinator, or a Team Leader - don't really know
It's all I ever wanted, so my life these days is better and better. And the fact that I have moved to a morning shift, after a year, it's just wonderful.
To describe the best as I can, what do I actually do, I decided to post following picture:
We have announced three positions, so I spend my days going trough the CVs that people have send.
So until the next weekend, and a bit more time,
In awesome state of mind,
Sandra
It's all I ever wanted, so my life these days is better and better. And the fact that I have moved to a morning shift, after a year, it's just wonderful.
To describe the best as I can, what do I actually do, I decided to post following picture:
We have announced three positions, so I spend my days going trough the CVs that people have send.
So until the next weekend, and a bit more time,
In awesome state of mind,
Sandra
Aug 8, 2010
weird, different, or, yet, normal?
First of all, do not ever Google word weird and look for the pictures. That's scary.
Anyway, two posts today. Wow.
As I'm getting older, these two words are becoming more and more used in my presence.
Motherhood and marriage.
My parents, my family and, of course, let us not forget the society, they all expect that, as a gal approaches her young 30s, to have a wedding ring on her right hand, or even a child or two.
I despite that idea.
As matter of fact, as I'm getting older, the whole idea about having a husband and bunch of kids is shading in my mind.
And I keep asking myself, is everything ok with me?
I mean, all of my friends have a certain idea and a wish to find that "until the end of the time" person, and yet, I stand alone in my wishes of not changing my last name, ever.
I do not run away from an idea of having someone to love, and to be loved, but I ask you, is there a possibility of being happy without the marriage and kids thing?
For me, the ultimate happiness is a possibility to make people around me happy.
If that makes me weird, let it be.
With love,
S
Anyway, two posts today. Wow.
As I'm getting older, these two words are becoming more and more used in my presence.
Motherhood and marriage.
My parents, my family and, of course, let us not forget the society, they all expect that, as a gal approaches her young 30s, to have a wedding ring on her right hand, or even a child or two.
I despite that idea.
As matter of fact, as I'm getting older, the whole idea about having a husband and bunch of kids is shading in my mind.
And I keep asking myself, is everything ok with me?
I mean, all of my friends have a certain idea and a wish to find that "until the end of the time" person, and yet, I stand alone in my wishes of not changing my last name, ever.
I do not run away from an idea of having someone to love, and to be loved, but I ask you, is there a possibility of being happy without the marriage and kids thing?
For me, the ultimate happiness is a possibility to make people around me happy.
If that makes me weird, let it be.
With love,
S
what to wear?
No matter how different we girls are, and no matter what we want from our lives, and who do we want to be, there is a thing where all of us are the same.
The ultimate question is WHAT TO WEAR TONIGHT?
I'm invited to this wedding. And I kinda want to skip my usual style ideas,which is hard.
I want to impress, myself, as well as others, especially when I'm not in my best state of mind, and when I need to hear nice things about myself.
I also want to have fun at the wedding party, want to dance, spin the fire, be myself.
So after careful consideration, after closing thousands and thousands of google images, trying to find my perfect self in others, I have decided to keep it simple and to wear high heels ( first time for me ), pair of good jeans, white t shirt and blue blazer.
So stay tuned,
S
The ultimate question is WHAT TO WEAR TONIGHT?
I'm invited to this wedding. And I kinda want to skip my usual style ideas,which is hard.
I want to impress, myself, as well as others, especially when I'm not in my best state of mind, and when I need to hear nice things about myself.
I also want to have fun at the wedding party, want to dance, spin the fire, be myself.
So after careful consideration, after closing thousands and thousands of google images, trying to find my perfect self in others, I have decided to keep it simple and to wear high heels ( first time for me ), pair of good jeans, white t shirt and blue blazer.
So stay tuned,
S
Aug 6, 2010
where is the inner peace?
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Inner peace (or peace of mind) refers to a state of being mentally and spiritually at peace, with enough knowledge and understanding to keep oneself strong in the face of discord or stress. Being "at peace" is considered by many to be healthy (homeostasis) and the opposite of being stressed or anxious. Peace of mind is generally associated with bliss and happiness.
Peace of mind, serenity, and calmness are descriptions of a disposition free from the effects of stress. In some cultures, inner peace is considered a state of consciousness or enlightenment that may be cultivated by various forms of training, such as prayer, meditation, T'ai Chi Ch'uan or yoga, for example. Many spiritual practices refer to this peace as an experience of knowing oneself. Finding inner peace is often associated with traditions such as Buddhism and Hinduism.
Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama, emphasizes the importance of inner peace in the world:
The question of real, lasting world peace concerns human beings, so basic human feelings are also at its roots. Through inner peace, genuine world peace can be achieved. In this the importance of individual responsibility is quite clear; an atmosphere of peace must first be created within ourselves, then gradually expanded to include our families, our communities, and ultimately the whole planet.
Inner peace (or peace of mind) refers to a state of being mentally and spiritually at peace, with enough knowledge and understanding to keep oneself strong in the face of discord or stress. Being "at peace" is considered by many to be healthy (homeostasis) and the opposite of being stressed or anxious. Peace of mind is generally associated with bliss and happiness.
Peace of mind, serenity, and calmness are descriptions of a disposition free from the effects of stress. In some cultures, inner peace is considered a state of consciousness or enlightenment that may be cultivated by various forms of training, such as prayer, meditation, T'ai Chi Ch'uan or yoga, for example. Many spiritual practices refer to this peace as an experience of knowing oneself. Finding inner peace is often associated with traditions such as Buddhism and Hinduism.
Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama, emphasizes the importance of inner peace in the world:
The question of real, lasting world peace concerns human beings, so basic human feelings are also at its roots. Through inner peace, genuine world peace can be achieved. In this the importance of individual responsibility is quite clear; an atmosphere of peace must first be created within ourselves, then gradually expanded to include our families, our communities, and ultimately the whole planet.
Aug 5, 2010
Aug 4, 2010
Aug 2, 2010
a music therapy
I woke up in the shitty state of mind.
But he wonderful world of music, wonderful world of music.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKIvi13R4o0&feature=related
Fresh again,
Coraleene
But he wonderful world of music, wonderful world of music.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKIvi13R4o0&feature=related
Fresh again,
Coraleene
Aug 1, 2010
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