A year has passed...

So, it's been a year now since I started this blog.

There were good days, there were bad days.

Lesson learned: Life brings you only those things you can overcome in the present moment.

I'm not sure if I'm smarter, better or wiser, but I'm conscious.

Be Love in the upcoming year.

life is good?

i lost my job, and move back to my parents.

is there a better time to say that i feel like a looser, like someone who was at one point in my life, and then went three steps backwards?

i keep telling to myself that this is just a moment in time, and that shall pass, but i'm stuck in a wrong mood, angry feelings and sad faces.

i try to listen to my favorite musician, but i have troubles finding those words that lift me up and make me happy.

watching TV again, hate myself for spending days in front of it.


i don't know guys, like i'm at the beggining again - will i be better this time?

20 ways to love your body

1.Think of your body as the vehicle to your dreams. Honor it. Respect it. Fuel it.
2.Create a list of all the things your body lets you do. Read it and add to it often.
3.Become aware of what your body can do each day. Remember it is the instrument of your life, not just an ornament.
4.Create a list of people you admire: people who have contributed to your life, your community, or the world. Consider whether their appearance was important to their success and accomplishments.
5.Walk with your head held high, supported by pride and confidence in yourself as a person.
6.Don’t let your weight or shape keep you from activities that you enjoy.
7.Wear comfortable clothes that you like, that express your personal style, and that feel good to your body.
8.Count your blessings, not your blemishes.
9.Think about all the things you could accomplish with the time and energy you currently spend worrying about your body and appearance. Try one!
10.Be your body’s friend and supporter, not its enemy.
11.Consider this: your skin replaces itself once a month, your stomach lining every five days, your liver every six weeks, and your skeleton every three months. Your body is extraordinary–begin to respect and appreciate it.
12.Every morning when you wake up, thank your body for resting and rejuvenating itself so you can enjoy the day.
13.Every evening when you go to bed, tell your body how much you appreciate what it has allowed you to do throughout the day.
14.Find a method of exercise that you enjoy and do it regularly. Don’t exercise to lose weight or to fight your body. Do it to make your body healthy and strong and because it makes you feel good. Exercise for the Three F’s: Fun, Fitness, and Friendship.
15.Think back to a time in your life when you felt good about your body. Tell yourself you can feel like that again, even in this body at this age.
16.Keep a list of 10 positive things about yourself–without mentioning your appearance. Add to it!
17.Put a sign on each of your mirrors saying, “I’m beautiful inside and out.”
18.Choose to find the beauty in the world and in yourself.
19.Start saying to yourself, “Life is too short to waste my time hating my body this way.”
20.Eat when you are hungry. Rest when you are tired. Surround yourself with people that remind you of your inner strength and beauty.

life goes on

If I look back on the past few weeks, the only thing I wanna do is to scream.

I've been telling to my friends how I believe that life gives you only those things than you can cope with at the best time in your life.

But being over analytical, as usual, I can't stop asking and searching for a meaning of these past few experiences I had to and have to experience.

Sometimes it's to much. I don't have enough energy, positive words and willingness to overcome everyday bullshits.


I wonder how does it feel when you are doing something truly amazing and wonderful that impacts peoples lives?


It could be that my dream about going to India and working with the poor is what I desire.

i hate people today!

JGL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6zMwGkY7z4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtYfs4NlQWM&feature=related

?

waiting in front of the white page ( just above to say black ) for an hour now.

just staring, with so messy mind, that feels like it's empty.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZawVNKJdSD0

cannot stop listening to it.

how does it feel

Jason explained that he wrote this for a child he met during his recent trip to Ghana as part of his involvement with the Free the Slaves organiza


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YOQofCNAoXE&feature=recentf

smile

I was listening to my favorite artist last night, and I don't really know what happened, but this morning I woke up in a different state of mind and shape of a body. Smile is on my face, things are appear to be different and I can only hope for this state to last.

I'm returning to my yoga classes tonight and I'm scared and excited at the same time.

I hope that this time I will finish my first three levels, and that in May next year I will be calm, whole and in peace with myself and the rest of the world.


Namaste,

S

speechless

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2D9XN1Hzjas

new songs!

amazingly funny, lovely, whole.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DwHUfAxQK8k

people?

as the day passes by I keep wondering more and more, do I even know the smallest thing about the life, about the people?

everything confuses me, and, today, I'm tired of the world.

need peace and quiet, and water to swim in, and sun and fruit and walks and a really good book.

what, when, where, and more important why!

is this hell, or just feels like it?

People screaming around me, at me, demanding, and I feel like I'm in a circle, and everyone wants a piece of me, pulling out not a piece, but the whole me.

People are greedy, and I know that you know how money transforms even the best and the kindest person in the entire world.

I'm not sure if I capable to live in this kind of a world, I'm not sure if I have all what does it take to live amongst these sharks of people. Who invented money anyway, why does it so fucking much rules this stupid world!!!

be.

Well, I hate PMS!

And fool moon too!

Who invented those things anyway!

I had a fight with my mom today, actually it was such a mess, public fight, crying and leaving her and my older sister in the middle of a street.

I have serious identity crisis and not sure where I am at the moment, and if what I'm doing is any good.

And now I feel sorry and angry, and gosh, such a mess. My mom didn't do anything wrong, but not sure if she did anything good, though.

The thing I was always missing in my family is a support. Today I needed that too, but didn't get it.

And I miss being happy, and really want to know what happiness is...

Trying to be me,


S

talking about forgiveness

what's hard for me to forgive my parents, is leaving Slovenia.

why am I crazy

Those of you who know me, well.., you are very familiar with my mood swings.
Some of you even make jokes about it, which is pretty awesome, I have to admit.

But in reality, if you are me, let me tell you, fun is not the word I would use to describe it.

I know I can be hard to deal with, even to talk, I know that I put walls between the rest of the world and myself, I know I'm cranky, evil sometimes.

And if you don't know, I will tell you now, I'm sorry because of that, but there is not much I can do, except to be away from you.

That's why I'm being quiet and pushing you away, just to avoid having a fight for no reason, and no meaning.

Girls will understand me, it's like having constant PSM - the worst one.

Why do I blog about this?

Because people around me started noticing I'm not ok.

And that hurts the most.

Because I cannot keep fooling myself anymore, I'm not good.

My body is tired, my mind is full and locked in a constant time pursue and in a rush to do more and more and more. Just for the pleasure. Hm.

That's all for now, I guess there is more to come.

With love,

S

a hero

you would be crazy not to love this guy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErLQjnwtVWQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dq1HJI76RbU&feature=related

sad day

on a day like this, i just need someone to hold me and say i love you.

the one and only, love

he keeps rolling

my biggest inspiration ...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8S35a60s1RQ&playnext=1&videos=haPqgxTfua8&feature=sub

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yy5nNxIfLCA&feature=channel

question (s ) of a day...

I have just realized that my world is actually running around two daily questions:

What to eat...

and

What to wear...

fake people seeing today

A fake person is someone who is not genuine and will do whatever it takes to make themself look good. They will take credit for other's work or down play the good of others to illuminate oneself. Fake people take part in hipocrisy, lies, and will turn on friendship the moment it no longer is a benefit for them. They will change thier personality to fit in to a certain group.

i think you're the same as me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qa163ZXdtnI&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1-j0wnt_fRE&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38Oh02l5rYE&feature=related

morning breeze needed

memories

This song brings back so many beautiful memories...

Missing Oman.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCVLDnEc7hc&feature=related

special post for a special person

To my lovely friend Dunja,

20 reasons to love giraffes...

Enjoy my dear.


http://www.disaboomlive.com/blogs/hopefulnebula/archive/2009/01/02/20-reasons-i-love-giraffes.aspx

A new position

Recently I have been moved to a new position, HR Manager, or Coordinator, or a Team Leader - don't really know


It's all I ever wanted, so my life these days is better and better. And the fact that I have moved to a morning shift, after a year, it's just wonderful.

To describe the best as I can, what do I actually do, I decided to post following picture:




We have announced three positions, so I spend my days going trough the CVs that people have send.


So until the next weekend, and a bit more time,

In awesome state of mind,

Sandra

weird, different, or, yet, normal?

First of all, do not ever Google word weird and look for the pictures. That's scary.

Anyway, two posts today. Wow.

As I'm getting older, these two words are becoming more and more used in my presence.

Motherhood and marriage.

My parents, my family and, of course, let us not forget the society, they all expect that, as a gal approaches her young 30s, to have a wedding ring on her right hand, or even a child or two.

I despite that idea.

As matter of fact, as I'm getting older, the whole idea about having a husband and bunch of kids is shading in my mind.
And I keep asking myself, is everything ok with me?

I mean, all of my friends have a certain idea and a wish to find that "until the end of the time" person, and yet, I stand alone in my wishes of not changing my last name, ever.

I do not run away from an idea of having someone to love, and to be loved, but I ask you, is there a possibility of being happy without the marriage and kids thing?

For me, the ultimate happiness is a possibility to make people around me happy.

If that makes me weird, let it be.

With love,

S

what to wear?

No matter how different we girls are, and no matter what we want from our lives, and who do we want to be, there is a thing where all of us are the same.

The ultimate question is WHAT TO WEAR TONIGHT?

I'm invited to this wedding. And I kinda want to skip my usual style ideas,which is hard.

I want to impress, myself, as well as others, especially when I'm not in my best state of mind, and when I need to hear nice things about myself.

I also want to have fun at the wedding party, want to dance, spin the fire, be myself.

So after careful consideration, after closing thousands and thousands of google images, trying to find my perfect self in others, I have decided to keep it simple and to wear high heels ( first time for me ), pair of good jeans, white t shirt and blue blazer.

So stay tuned,

S

where is the inner peace?

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Inner peace (or peace of mind) refers to a state of being mentally and spiritually at peace, with enough knowledge and understanding to keep oneself strong in the face of discord or stress. Being "at peace" is considered by many to be healthy (homeostasis) and the opposite of being stressed or anxious. Peace of mind is generally associated with bliss and happiness.
Peace of mind, serenity, and calmness are descriptions of a disposition free from the effects of stress. In some cultures, inner peace is considered a state of consciousness or enlightenment that may be cultivated by various forms of training, such as prayer, meditation, T'ai Chi Ch'uan or yoga, for example. Many spiritual practices refer to this peace as an experience of knowing oneself. Finding inner peace is often associated with traditions such as Buddhism and Hinduism.

Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama, emphasizes the importance of inner peace in the world:
The question of real, lasting world peace concerns human beings, so basic human feelings are also at its roots. Through inner peace, genuine world peace can be achieved. In this the importance of individual responsibility is quite clear; an atmosphere of peace must first be created within ourselves, then gradually expanded to include our families, our communities, and ultimately the whole planet.

i'm addicted to your lies

Beautiful...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1h-WdWI-_c

some nice wall things

a music therapy

I woke up in the shitty state of mind.

But he wonderful world of music, wonderful world of music.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gKIvi13R4o0&feature=related


Fresh again,

Coraleene

don't like sundays

for me it's the loneliest day in the week.

trying to adopt this dog

James McAvoy

oldy but goody

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bfd8_B10x9g

daydreaming

Forgot to mention I’m insane by definition

Sometimes I know I'm taking things to serious, and that makes my life a bit harder than I would like to be.

Trough the years I have learned, and still do, to enjoy in each day I have pleasure to experience. God knows, how many times I have made mistakes, on this journey. I think it's because I'm trying to be perfect. And during trying this, I do not allow myself to fall down. Sometimes this path I wish to follow is unclear, and it takes me a bit of time to find the steps.

Being a control freak is freakish. And there are no words that can possibly help, because you are loosing a control, and that's the thing you cannot stand.
My good friend told me that the thing she respects the most about me, is the fact that I do whatever I like, no matter what others feel or say. It's like, I'm being me. I was proud to hear that, and I personally think it's the only way to survive in this society which is build on stories constructed about other people lives.

But at the same time, I'm asking myself what's the point of being myself?

Is there a reward waiting for me, for acting like this, or being myself is a reward itself?

I do enjoy in it, I wouldn't want to be anything else.

But I keep repeating myself, isn't it supposed to be easier, being me?

I keep thinking there is a higher purpose of my life, which I'm yet to discover.

I'm not saying I'm not happy. Because I am. For the first time in my life, I feel happy everyday. So, I'm the lucky one.

I would just like to relax and enjoy without asking so many questions.

With all the love,

S

TEDxBelgrade

ON a particularly hot day of July, TEDx conference was held in Belgrade.


I was there, of course.







I'm not gonna tell you about the organization, or communication, or about the design of the conference.

I will tell you about my favorite speaker, which, I honestly hope, will be my partner in my future projects.

Ladies and gentleman,




www.nonobjectbook.com.

this time it's marion cotillard

Is there anyone that's more beautiful than she?








http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W76WUvtonX8&feature=related

cool school

www.greenschool.org

some of the inspiring people...

... I would like to meet.

Welcome to my world

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzX9jHB3LfA

The Blend Apparel

Sandra!!

That's AMAZING!

Thank YOU so much for letting us know! We LOVE your feedback!

We LOVE that you are super willing to stay in contact with us and we LOVE that you are super willing to wear our t-shirts!
It brings us so much JOY!


We are really proud to have you wearing our t-shirts! We are a fan of YOU!
Can't wait to see the pictures.


Thank you again, friend!


All the LOVE!

Team Blend

how little we need to be happy

One of my friends said a funny thing the other day. He said, she will blog about us, when she feels happy.
And today I do.

I really feel happy.

I had two amazing days, full of surprises, which reminded me how little I need to feel happy and fulfilled.

I finally received my BLEND shirts, which makes me a first walking ambassador of love in Serbia from today. Isn't that simply wonderful?

My city is occupied with the beautiful people from all around the world - all with the same goal: to have fun at the upcoming EXIT festival.

The vibe of the city I love is truly amazing.

I have also been accepted to the TEDx conference.

So what more could I wish?

Music that touched each and every part of my body, and friends, my beautiful friends.


In joy,
and finally fresh,

S

all we need is love

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.” Mother Teresa


“I've got everything I need except a man. And I'm not one of those women who thinks a man is the answer to everything, but I'm tired of being alone.”

what's the point

sorry guys, but I feel like a crap today, I mean, what's the point!!!

don't you want to share the guilt?

BBQ food is good
You invite me out to eat it, I should...
Go, but I'm feeling kind of nervous
And not quite myself
So I'm running late on purpose
And I know this wont help
How things have become between us
But if I go you'll give me hell
And that I dont know how to fix it
Is making me unwell
Well

I arrive at your house
But you've just got up
And you are wearing a towel
And your eyes look dark
I help to dry your body
And I see your cut
So I give you a plaster
And we cover it up
I say "Have you been crying?"
And you say "Shut Up"
So we sit in the garden
And touch the grass
With our hands

The sun is going down now
And it's been okay
You tell me all the things you did
While I was away
And this worries me somewhat
You say you're fine

Listen
Can you hear it?
Does it speak?
Will I feel it?
Will it hurt?
Am I near it?
I dont know

I dont know how more people havent got mental health problems
Thinking is one of those stressful things I've ever come across
And not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy
I think I should read some more books
Learn some new words
My sister used to read the dictionary
I'm going to start with that
I'd like to travel
I want to see India and the pyramids
A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France
I'm not sure about rivers, they scare me
But I love swimming, I'm good at it
And when I swim I count the laps
And this helps me relax
When I was younger I saw a house burn down
I walked past it for the next six years
Derelict, black, chalky and dangerous
I wondered if squatters lived there
I'm still not sure but I know there will never be parties cuz its a shit-hole
After a while the council got round to tidying the town
They decided it was an eyesore so they tore it down
Behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crabby graffiti and the word 'Cunt' written in giant letters
And now I walk past that
I like going to the park
And I like walking through it
I like taking my dogs there
And friends, and I like being alone
I like being able to shout
But I wish I could be quiet
When I'm quiet people just think I'm sad
And usually I am
Sometimes when I'm at a really noisy train station
Somewhere with the fast trains like Kings Cross
I feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because I've got something to say

Don't you want to share the guilt?
Don't think, just try and sleep


Kate Nash

words i cannot bring together

"I feel love in the house tonight, that's all there is."

Some of the comments, others have posted.


I've only been a fan for a few weeks...because someone on youtube mentioned his name.
I guess I'm hooked because all his stuff doesn't seem to have been passed through a filter of executives at a music company.
They guy just appears genuine...and proud of it.


T E R R I F I C! this performance is a masterpiece!!! this guy is born to make a music that just mesmerizes you! he is an incredible songwriter, vocalist and performer. what mostly attracts me that he is so honest in his songs, he writes from his heart,about his feelings and he does it perfectly. he is open to his listeners and knows the language to communicate with them. he is frank and simple. I just love him and his music


So fantastic. I love the idea of this. It's like he's just playing for himself because he loves to. He just wants to sing his song, regardless of any approval or encouragement from anyone. Out of all the recordings I've heard of this, this is the most intimate and heartfelt

this song. this version, is going to be at my funeral. just amazing. this man.. hes just phenomenal. I'm kinda glad he hasnt made it fully mainstream because only his fans right now fully appreciate his music and his talent. It's kinda like he belongs to us :) He's so in touch with his fans and appreciates us as much as we appreciate him. Long live Jason Mraz, the most underrated artist there will ever be.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--3cakcsgCo&feature=related

first walking messanger of love...

first time in Serbia, soon.

I'll leave it to you to give the name to this post

I don't really know when I discovered Jason Mraz. I think, at first, I kinda hatted his "I'm yours" - God knows why.

Today I cannot imagine my day wihtout his songs, or words. He is the reason I decided to start blogging, he is the reason I'm trying to make a change, to be a change. And let me tell you, it's hard. But each time when I feel like I'm fighting the invisible battle, his magic words, peace and endless love for the life and the world, makes me keep going. So yes, maybe not the reason, but strength for sure.




He is kind, honest, true, grateful, peaceful, the change, love and only human in this mainly mad world.

I wish for myself to be like that. I wish for the entire world to be like that. I don't think that's a silly dream.

Sometimes I think his life purpose is to make other people happy and make this planet we call our home a better place for all of us.


It's hard for me to choose the correct words to describe my thoughts and emotions.

Let me just say what he taught me,

Be Love.

to hot to think.

...

summer is here.

and no water to take a swim.

Danube is to filthy.

pure love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzd_RfaoMcs

running in circle

I had a hell of a week, and it's not over yet. I heard somewhere that yet is a quite sad word - today I understand why.

I'm somewhere in between. I don't really know whether I have started something, or whether I have just finished.

I haven't seen my friends for a while now, and I keep asking myself, when am I going to find some time to have a coffee with some of the closest ones. When I'm not working, I'm sleeping. And more important, when I do work, everyone else is sleeping. It's hard. I fell like I'm loosing my life purpose, and I'm not sure if I ever was sure what exactly that is. I need to do something good!

I want to adopt a dog - and I'm thinking why would I do that - when I'm not quite sure if I'm going to be able to take a proper care about myself.

I keep thinking that some people much easier deal with everyday problems, easier than me.

My body is so tired, my mind is confused, and still I don't think I'm bad. At least I don't feel bad.

I just need some order in my life.

It's hard, really hard.

rain

It's raining again.

Go for it! Make a Difference!

Food has always been an important thing in my life. I've spent my early teenage days in a kitchen, cooking, experimenting, chopping, mixing, and bringing a smile to my family's faces.

When I was a kid, I would cry like crazy if my parents would offer me a green vegetable thing. I remember how my father would use to make us eat spinach and my trowing up face each time when I would put just a bit of it in my mouth.

Later trough the years, food became a sort of a therapy for me. Everything would make sense in the kitchen. There isn't anything in the whole world that can bring such a comfort on a bad day. And let me tell you, I have had them. But when a food becomes a therapy session, it creates so many problems, which I have become aware of, only recently. Becoming bigger and bigger, is only one, possibly, the smallest thing.

I remember how I used to sit in my room, alone, not having any friends, and not showing interest in making any. Well, why would I? You cannot depend on them. And yet, food was always there.

Do you know to how many doctors my mother took me, because I wasn't able to process the food. I can still remember all the stomach ache and horrible cramps I was experiencing.

Approximately a decade ago ( during my TV addiction ) I have discovered this " naked chef ". I was instantly attracted to his passion for cooking, and I have became a regular follower of his shows. Luckily I was raised in a culture where home cooking is not a strange action that no one practices, so it was quite easy to follow his advices and to create a fabulous dish.

As I was becoming older, my perspective on food didn't change a lot. But what have changed is my knowledge of a food.

So I'm a vegetarian now. It started as a "love for animals", and yes, I still refuse to kill in order to have a meal. For some time I was quite happy whit the relationship and a perspective I have for the food. Then I've started reading and exploring and trying to make some influence to the people I was surrounded. I was out of my mind angry when I became aware that my 6 years old niece is having a potato chips for a breakfast. Each morning! So I started explaining to her what will that chips do to her body, and what healthy food is. And what's scary is the fact that me, 27 year old vegetarian, did not put a green vegetable in her body for months! And let me not started with the preparing the food for myself.

You gonna see me in a big supermarket reading the ingredients on the back of each product I think I wanna buy. And you gonna see me putting back each product I take, because it's all sugar and artificial things.

I keep reminding myself to cook, and I live alone, so all of you with the same situation, you know how hard is to cook only for one person.

I keep reminding myself to go to the market and buy some salad, it's spring, so there is a plenty of things. I still haven't done it.

So, I'm concerned about my health. Sometimes I get pissed of to myself, because I don't take care. Today I cried. I watched Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution. And it's amazing, wonderful, beautiful, important, mind blowing, honest and deserves a respect from every person in this planet.

I honestly think that this is the greatest thing in the whole world that has ever been done. Why? Well, the food it's just a beginning. When we change the food we are eating, we can change the world. This revolution can resolve and clear the economy a big companies monopoly. Health issues and modern diseases will no longer exist. It can create a healthy relationship with the food, and a relationship among the people.

That's why I support Jamie, that's why I commit to eat good, start cooking again, and becoming a public speaker to "processed food" issues.

My friends, I might become annoying.

Making a Difference!