The Love

Lately I'm writting a lot about love. Love has always been a really important thing in my daily life and I was never able to do anything without love. If there was no love in things I was supposed to do, I wouldn't do it. Simple as that. My mind would fight, my body would fight, my being would fight.
I finished desired hifh school because I loved that job. I finished faculty because I loved psychology. I still do. During the past few years one of my mantras is 'be love'. Really, everything I do, or say, or I want is something I try to do out of love. Can't really say that every single act I performe/d was from the be love place. But it is something I'm aware of, and it is something I'm trying to forgive myself. I've learned that the fear, all of my insecurities, anger, jelaousy was because I needed love and I wanted to share all the love I have and feel with someone special, or no special at all.
Once I told to my very good friend: love is not waiting for someone to complete you, it's being complete and being ready to share your complete self with someone else.
Today I feel complete. Although I was ready to give love and share everything during the past months, somewhere in the middle I lost my course and I needed to be reminded that to have love and understanding for my own being is the place from which love for others needs to go.
I found someone I want to share my love with and it's really not that hard for me to love her.